Posts Tagged ‘Depression’

NBA fans have seen little of newly acquired Los Angeles Clippers guard John Wall in recent seasons due to injuries and a lengthy team holdout.

The former All-Star recently opened up about his mental health struggles while dealing with on- and off-court issues during his NBA absence.

“(It was) the darkest place I’ve ever been in. At one point in time I considered committing suicide,” Wall said during his annual Salvation Army fundraiser earlier in August. “Tearing my Achilles, my mom being sick, my mom passing, my grandma passed a year later, all this in the midst of COVID at the same time.”

Wall is preparing to make his first appearance on an NBA floor since the 2020-21 campaign after sitting out all of last season as the rebuilding Houston Rockets held him out of competition. He played just 40 games the year prior, his first season with Houston after being traded from the Washington Wizards.

The five-time All-Star also missed the entire 2019-20 campaign with a torn Achilles, going through a portion of the lengthy rehab process at the start of the pandemic. In total, the 2010 No. 1 pick has played in just 113 games over the last five seasons.

Wall signed with the Clippers after the Rockets waived him earlier this offseason, and he’s slated to play a meaningful role on a contender for the first time in years.

The 31-year-old has found a new belief in himself as he begins a new stage in his career.

“I’m looking at all this and I’m like, if I can get through this, I can get through anything in life,” Wall said.

“For me to be back on top where I want to be, and to see the fans still want me to play, having support … (it) means a lot.”

There are some moments in life, good or bad, that one will never forget. For former WWE star Paige, one of those moments was when photos and videos of her were leaked, without her consent, in 2017. In an appearance on The Sessions with Renee Paquette, Paige took Paquette through the day, and how she found out while in San Antonio, Texas.

“It was just the most awful moment of my life,” Paige said. “The person that I was with at the time showed me a picture on Twitter. And I was just like, ‘Oh my God. Is that real?’ I couldn’t believe it was real at first, because I was 19 [at the time]. I was completely fucking mortified. I ran out of the house, and I just kept running. I remember I was inside a fucking bush, and I’ll always remember this, just sitting in this bush because I was like ‘If people recognize me, they’re going to know.’

“I felt so stupid to have trusted this person at the time. I never done it since, that was a lesson I learned, and I’ll never be caught dead doing anything like that again. But I felt so fucking stupid and I felt so embarrassed, and I was already a cokehead at this time and loved to drink. That really got me to the point where I didn’t want to be alive anymore. It was fing awful. I was just so fucking sad, and I remember being like ‘If my dad is a disappointed with me, I don’t think I could be here anymore. It got to that point.”

It was then that Paige decided to call her father, pro wrestler turned promoter Ricky Knight, who offered his unique support.

“I was just crying my eyes out, and I was like, ‘I’m so sorry,'” Paige said. “My dad was like, ‘What are you sorry for?’ And I was just like, ‘I don’t know. I just don’t want to disappoint you.’ He was like, ‘Are you kidding me? That shit made Kim Kardashian famous.’ He was trying to make a joke. He said, ‘Who cares? You had sex. Everyone’s done it. Unfortunately, you’re just in the public eye, right?’

“He was like, ‘It is what it is. You’ve got to suck it up. It’s going to hurt for a little bit and people are going to make fun of you for forever. But I just want you to know that I’m still proud of you and I’m not disappointed.’ He instantly changed the way I was feeling because I was very down. It was bad. I was ready to fucking end it all. It was just the most morifying experience.”

“I spoke on the phone with Mark Carrano, and I was like, ‘I’m going to lose my job. This is it too,'” Paige said. “But they were like, ‘Listen, it’s not your fault.’ That’s why I will never talk shit about them, at least publicly. They were so supportive and they were like, ‘We’ll get through it. We’ll try to get as much off the internet as possible.'”

These days Paige doesn’t let the incident bother her, save for one thing that involves her family and friends.

“The only thing I don’t like about it and it’s annoying that I’m even going to bring it up, but I hate that they send it to my family all the time to get at them,” Paige said. “That’s what they’ll do at this point. Even to my boyfriend. He’ll get it sent to him because it’s just fans that don’t want to see me or him happy.

“They’ll send it to anyone that’s close to me like, ‘This is your girlfriend. This is your daughter.’ I’m just like, ‘Who cares dude? What, are you a fucking virgin? It happens.’ So yeah. I got bullied relentlessly, it was fuckng awful. The bullying was starting to get me crazy to the point that I was cutting myself. I never thought I’d be a cutter, but I did, and it was fucking awful and I wish I hadn’t done it.”

Dwayne “The Rock” Johnson has shared stories about his battles with depression in the past. Now, he’s sharing his story in a different way.

Season 2 of Young Rock will depict the 18-year-old Johnson battling depression after he suffered an injury while he was pursuing his dreams of playing football at the University of Miami.

“I grew up an only child, and a dude,” Rock told E! “Dudes have a tendency to hold this stuff in. And you know, it’s not in our nature to just talk about it because it makes us feel vulnerable. We don’t want to feel vulnerable. It makes us feel weak, we shouldn’t feel weak. We should have our shit together. But that’s not life.”

The Rock says he’s encouraged by other people’s reactions to his personal story and is hoping to help clear some of the stigmas that often surround discussions about mental health.

“The most touching feedback that I consistently received has been our openness to talk about mental health,” Rock said. “It was something that I was unfamiliar with when I had my first bout with depression at the end of 1990. I didn’t know what it was. I just felt like, ‘Man, I feel like sh*t. I don’t want to do anything.’”

The Rock has recently teased a return to WWE TV, but there’s no official word on when The Rock might return to WWE TV or if he might return. He is rumored to be the intended opponent for WWE Universal Champion Roman Reigns at WrestleMania 39 in 2023. That event will also take place at SoFi Stadium in Inglewood, California.

Season 2 of Young Rock premiered last week. Producers say the season will also show The Rock’s transition into the wrestling ring, including him performing as his former WWE persona Rocky Maivia.

Tennessee Titans wide receiver A.J. Brown seemed to have everything going his way in 2020, having his best season yet in the NFL on the way to earning his first Pro Bowl honor.

Behind his big smile, Brown said Thursday he was battling so hard with depression back then that he thought of killing himself. He shared a video on social media Nov. 12 on the one-year anniversary of that dark time, encouraging people to ask for help, and Brown told reporters Thursday that’s why he finally spoke up.

“It was a dark moment, and it was a year ago where I had thought about taking my life, you know? And it was special to me because it just came with my heart that I wanted to share with others and help others so much as I can,” Brown said of sharing his own struggle.

Growing up in Mississippi, Brown said he always brushed off his feelings and didn’t consider what depression really was. Brown wouldn’t share what led to his depression. Those feelings wound up almost overwhelming him.

Brown said he thought long and hard about posting the video he recorded earlier on Nov. 12. He was nervous about whether he should share his personal struggle with the world. Brown described what gave him the courage to do it.

“I just wanted to put out a positive message that I’m still here,” Brown said. “I’m still growing. I’m still learning. I’m blessed. I’ve got a lot of things to be grateful for and someone was there for me. So reach out to your loved ones and ask them how they’re doing and listen to them, you know, because it’s important.”

The response to Brown’s video has been very positive. Brown said a lot of men reached out, telling him what he shared was powerful. He also sat down with several Titans teammates who talked about their own struggles, which Brown says they need to do more often.

“You need to look out for one another,” Brown said. “I know we play this beautiful game, but you know, life is beautiful.”

Brown said it’s easy to put on a smile and pretend everything is OK. He credits former Mississippi teammate and roommate Elijah Moore, rookie with the New York Jets this season, with helping him through his most difficult moments. He also reached out for professional help, which he’s still using.

The receiver currently leads the Titans with 41 catches for 567 yards and three touchdowns.

Titans coach Mike Vrabel said Monday he appreciates Brown’s courage in speaking up about mental health. The coach focuses regularly on the mental health of the Titans and said he is glad they’ve been able to provide a safe space for people dealing with the strain that being in the NFL can put on professional athletes.

“Hopefully his message can help somebody else feel comfortable to seek help, get things off their chest, to be able to talk through things, and I think that is a great example,” Vrabel said.

Vrabel added that the Titans discussed a college football player whose death in November 2015 was ruled a suicide and how his mother thought her son seemed happy. That struck home with Vrabel, father of two sons, with one playing football at Boston College.

“Having kids that are going to start going off away from college and moving on and having their own life, these are real things we all deal with,” Vrabel said. “It is great when people can, especially significant professional football players or athletes, are willing to address it and willing to make statements about it.”

On the latest episode of Pro Wrestling 4 Life, two-time WWE Hall of Famer Sean “X-Pac” Waltman sat down with an old friend in pro wrestling veteran and AEW producer Jerry Lynn. Co-host and Wrestling Inc. Managing Editor Nick Hausman asked Lynn what it’s been like to be a coach at AEW and pass on his teachings.

“I love it. I do a seminar also, but you have some that you can tell it goes in one ear and out the other, which is fine,” Lynn said. “But when you see the light bulb go off in their eyes, that’s the payoff. It’s really nice when you have ones that really soak it in and learn, and I tell them first and foremost, even when I do seminars, everything I preach to you I’m 100% guilty of, but that’s how I’ve learned.”

“It’s so cool, and it makes me feel so good to see you somewhere where you’re obviously valued,” Waltman expressed. “Tony Khan, as he should be, a big Jerry fan. It just makes me feel so good, man, because you totally deserve it.”

“Thank you. I always hoped I made enough friends along the way that I’d have a job afterwards someday because it was hard having to quit,” Lynn admitted. “I went through a two year depression of drinking every day, and I put my poor wife through hell, but she stuck in there. She didn’t ride me or give me any grief. She knew it would just run its course, and I’d be fine.”

Lynn later discussed what it’s like to work with AEW President Tony Khan.

“Well, the first thing he reminded me of was he said he used to race home after school so he could watch Sean and I on Global [Wrestling Federation],” Lynn revealed. “I said, ‘You’re too young. How old are you? You’re too young to remember that,’ but he remembers everything.

“It’s great working for Tony. He’s a really great guy, and I’ve said this many times, this is the best company I’ve worked for, even outside the wrestling industry because you’re treated like a human being and not just a number.”

Waltman then asked Lynn if he ever thought about coming back to wrestling after his extended absence before AEW, and Lynn recalled a conversation with a WWE Hall of Famer about the grind of the business.

“Oh, no, because I was at that regular job for nine years before AEW came up, but I would still occasionally do an autograph signing or a convention or seminars,” Lynn noted. “And so I was still dabbling a little bit in the business. I wasn’t out completely.”

“Have you ever been mad at wrestling?”, Waltman asked. “Have you ever been mad at wrestling?

“Oh, yeah. The first time I met Roddy Piper was at TNA, and I saw him after the show at TGI Fridays, so I went sat next to him,” Lynn recalled. “We talked for a while, and I told him, ‘Wrestling is a real love – hate relationship. Sometimes I hate the fact that I love it so much,’ and he said, ‘That’s a great way of putting it’ It’s a tough grind. If you let it, it does affect you mentally and emotionally.”

LaMarcus Aldridge admits he’s been struggling with his mental health since retiring from the NBA earlier this season.

“I’ve been depressed, and I’m trying to figure out how to navigate through not competing on the floor, learning not to be depressed,” Aldridge said in a recent interview with The Athletic’s Shams Charania. “I still love basketball. I still feel like I have a lot to give. But even now, I’m still trying to find myself.

“When you go from doing something you love for so long and you lose it overnight, it’s a shock.”

The seven-time All-Star abruptly retired from basketball on April 15 after experiencing an irregular heartbeat during a game against the Los Angeles Lakers. Aldridge says the decision was a challenging one to make, especially since the Nets are among the NBA’s title favorites.

“That was the hardest part,” Aldridge said of walking away from a chance at winning a championship. “Being in a position to get to the Finals and have an opportunity to be on that stage and be a part of history and make my mark.

“I wanted to get there (to the Finals) and see what it’s like, help those guys win and be a part of the journey. And then if we got there, hopefully we would go back two or three more times.”

Aldridge finished his 15-year career with 19.4 points, 8.2 rebounds, and 1.1 blocks averaged across 1,029 games with the Portland Trail Blazers, San Antonio Spurs, and Nets. The 35-year-old says he’ll consider taking a coaching role in the league after this campaign ends, according to Charania.

CazXL (fka WWE’s Big Cass) appeared on Insight with Chris Van Vliet to discuss returning to wrestling after going into recovery for alcohol addiction. The former WWE star also spoke about a possible future with All Elite Wrestling, and if he’d ever return to WWE.

After getting into amazing shape, Caz began popping up at various indie shows over the past couple months. Caz said he’s still passionate about wrestling and was very happy to be back in the ring.

“It feels amazing,” CazXL said. “There was a point in time where I thought I don’t want to go back to wrestling. I almost hated it and resented it so bad. I woke up four months ago and realized that was the first thing I fell in love with. You want to do what you love in life, you want to do what you’re passionate about, or you’re not gonna be happy. I am passionate about wrestling, and I just started my journey to getting back into the ring.”

Before his comeback, Caz thought he was done with wrestling and headed to another profession outside of the industry.

“Yeah I think so,” Caz said when asked if he thought he was done. “I was kind of just looking. I was thinking about going back to school to get my masters in social work. I’m very passionate about recovery and I want to help people. That was an option, to go back and get my masters. I was kind of just looking at different paths in my life, and I told myself I wasn’t going back to wrestling. But yeah, here I am. I guess it was resentment, or just that I really hated it for a little while. I didn’t want to be anywhere near it.”

In previous interviews, Caz spoke about his battles with depression, which he fought by using alcohol to self-medicate. If eventually got to the point where going to rehab was a necessity if he wanted to continue living.

“It became a matter of life and death,” CazXL admitted. “I had a few more seizures after the one in Philadelphia. It got to the point where I knew I was going to die. If I keep going down this path I’m gonna die. There was a point where maybe I didn’t even care about that, but for some reason at that point in time I did care. I was like I can’t die, I’ve got to do something about this. I could have easily given up, but some instinctual thing told me to keep going. The hardest thing to do is to reach out for help.”

Known for helping other wrestlers like Scott Hall and Jake Roberts, Diamond Dallas Page came to the aid of Caz when he needed it most.

“He helped a lot. He was one of the first people to give me a platform and encourage me to share what I was going through,” CazXL recalled. “If I didn’t do that then people can’t relate to it. That was a big first step was me admitting it. I think I admitted it in a promo backstage after I wrestled Jon Moxley. But the video that DDPY put out really got the word out to what I was going through. And it was through Dallas that I met my girlfriend [Lexy Nair, daughter of DDP and AEW Backstage Reporter].”

Release by WWE in 2018, he was asked if that was a place he could ever go back to down the road.

“I do. I think with time and earning people’s trust, just as I have earned my family and friend’s trust,” Caz said. “People have to see you doing well over a certain period of time.”

AEW was also brought up as a potential destination for the former WWE Superstar, but ultimately he’s fine with taking things one day at a time and is open to going anywhere.

“I would love to go to AEW,” Caz said. “I’d love to go back to WWE, go to AEW, IMPACT, New Japan, Ring of Honor, wherever. Those conversations with Gallows and Anderson have happened and it’s something I would love to do. But one day at a time is the way I take it, I don’t want to look too far into the future. If a phone call comes tonight that’s great, if it doesn’t come for another three to four months or a year, that’s fine too. I’m open to go anywhere and to have fun, and to make a name for myself.”

If you thought Rhea Ripley’s WrestleMania debut was a slight disappointment last year, then don’t worry. You’re not alone, because she did too.

Rhea told WWE’s own ‘Grit & Glory‘ series that she was left totally “depressed” by the event. Did she hate her match with Charlotte Flair? Well, no, not quite. Ripley was more bummed out that her family couldn’t be there live to witness a moment she’d worked tirelessly for.

Also, the backstage atmosphere at the tiny (at least by comparison to the show’s original venue at Raymond James Stadium) Performance Center was just kinda’ weird. The ghost town vibes backstage and the complete lack of any and all natural ambience at ringside left Rhea feeling a bit hollow.

This wasn’t the ‘Mania she had hoped for.

Ripley admitted to WWE’s cameras that she was “pretty upset” by the whole ordeal. Unfortunately, the feud with Flair did little for her career either. She hasn’t quite been the same since the WrestleMania 36 sprint happened.

Fingers crossed that Rhea gets a ‘Mania moment to be proud of in the near future.

WWE SmackDown Women’s Champion Sasha Banks is Steve Austin’s latest guest on the Broken Skull Sessions. In the interview, Banks discusses last year’s four-month hiatus from WWE.

“At Elimination Chamber, I know how important that match was for Bayley, but at that time I still was slowly [going down] and not happy,” Banks recalled.

Austin asked Banks what was happening during that time to cause the downward spiral.

“Depression,” Banks began. “Depression was taking over. My mind was taking over. My thoughts were taking over. This place was being bigger than me. And I really, really lost myself because for a good seven years, I didn’t even hear my real name. I didn’t hear Mercedes anymore. All I heard was Sasha Banks, and traveling on the road, we only get one to two days off.

“So, I’m home, not even seeing what my real hair looks like. All I see if purple hair every single day. There were just so many things that were just — I let it control me. I let it take it and be like, ‘This is too much’ instead of being like, ‘You know what? Everything’s good. Breathe. Everything’s fine.’ [Laughs]”

Ultimately this led to Banks needing to take a break from the business before she completely lost who she was.

“I couldn’t even look at myself,” Banks said. “I didn’t even know who the hell I was. How I was going into work, how angry I was going in, how sad I was. I was not the person that I dreamt to be.

“It hit the fan and I wanted to make sure that I didn’t lose myself. So I said, ‘You know what? I got to take a step away and find myself again and I gotta be brave about that.’ And that was probably one of the hardest things I had to do — ask to leave the WWE.”

Banks revealed when she asked for a break, she spoke with Vince McMahon and he initially denied that request, offering her to think it over for 30 days.

“I asked to leave and Vince was like, ‘no,’” Banks laughed. “He said no. He said I’m gonna give you 30 days to think about it. And I took more than 30 days.”

Banks’ appearance on Steve Austin’s Broken Skulls Session is now on-demand on the WWE Network.

WWE Chronicle: Bianca Belair is now available on-demand on the WWE Network. In the clip above, Belair revealed her battle with depression that led to her admission to a psychiatric hospital.

“I went to try and talk with somebody to work through it and they put me on medication,” Belair began. “I ended up leaving that college and transferring to another college to start over again, instead of facing my issues and thinking I’m just going to run away from it. I stopped the medication, and you can’t do that, you have to wean yourself off it.

“When I stopped, everything came crashing back down. I got very, very, very depressed, and I didn’t know why. I didn’t know what was happening. I just was like, ‘I don’t want to be here anymore.’ So, I tried to not be here, anymore. I ended up in a psychiatric hospital. I remember being in this room and there was a lady screaming all night long. My parents are visiting me, they’re just in complete shock because they had no idea what was going on.

“Now I feel bad because I feel like, ‘Oh, God, they think I’m crazy. I feel like a failure.’ That was the moment where I was like, ‘I need to go home. I can’t keep running from college to college. I have to face this.’ I was able to sit there and talk to my parents and know that I had their support. That was the moment where I felt very safe and I felt like, ‘Okay, it’s going to get better.’ It wasn’t better at that moment, but I felt like it’s going to get better.”

WWE Intercontinental Champion Big E reacted to Belair’s story and commented:

“Bianca is so obviously a star. I didn’t know her story, but she’s going to positively impact so many lives. She’s so easy to root for.”